Om is upset !!!

I am sorry ..if anyone interacted with me recently find me guy who has got attitude.. or something...I am never like that...but i felt ..I have been tough and getting things straight...which might make u upset ...or feel i have changed than...I am sorry. Past couple of months has given so many things to think about...some silly things... If i drove 1500 miles ..came to hotel at 3 A.M. and someone calls me at 5A.M...I think i have right to get upset...specially when u r aware of my time. If u know me enough that i will consider...i have told and u might have found out by getting along with me...and you still behave like ...you dont know me...u r upsetting me.... I have got whole lot of dreams...somewhere sometime..I have considered your wellbeing ...thought you will do that..and...i tried my best to help you...and you are still stuck.... I am sure you are upsetting me... Do i look ...someone..who is desperate to get married..and you are trying to hook me up with someone ..without knowing me enough whom or what kind of personality of a women should be good for me....specially when u know me enough...you are upsetting me. I have always been someone ..who guides...convince..been mediator ..and glue for any kind of get together...You made a joke at my cost ..thats all right...you believe in my that capability...but trying to test yourself..with my knowledge...you are welcome...but when u take this negative...u r upsetting me... I felt like 30 few months ago...started thinking ...what the achievement i had in these 4 years in US...I was pretty upset...other than good job ..salary and money..I thought so much...my measure for success is always different....I tried to achieve and be around people i liked..if i dont get ...i feel failed...that did upset me... Yes ..I go out...I am outgoing personality...I love people in general...always interested in meeting new personality...if people consider this as ...i am too much into this..and i have changed ...then...thats not true..I am very personal to every individual i meet...I respect...and with my all possibility..I try to keep things moving with everyone...without hurting...Thatswhy..I have been called nice guy...nice bro...nice person...nice nice nice.....So i consider everyone is nice...Even though...i know ur not nice side..I wont mention...when u show that to me ...u upset me... If u r not smart...not understanding...a lame..a kid..a not known person...you somehow respect me...and look over me for many suggestions ..thats alright...but don't forget........I tried my best to let u know...what u should do...Now you consider me for being with all the time...u are upsetting me...since i know... those stations ..which i had passed by but not halted or stopped. Please ..Please..Dont bring money to me...I know its value and i am pretty good in understanding how it works...so be careful...I don't respect it...I will choose to loose money w.r.t. many things i like.... I lost 10 lbs in 45 days...thinking about upset...things...thought what the hell has happened to me...Got scared and ...really while dancing ...i hurt my back...and kept hurting with bad posture of seat ...and sleeping in sofa...finally got pain... Went to hospital..thinking ..there must be something wrong with me...lost weight ...now feel like 30....Did complete checkup....spending 1567$ from my insurance. Well.. I have got... heart of 20 year old...thanks for my dance and swim Kidney of 20 year old... lungs ...healthy and awsome... nothing on blood...healthy... Overall...I am on early twenty ..with my health...and routines and enjoyment...late thirty in thinking..and too old ...to understand many. So i became happy...confident ...positive.. Roaming around America... Started experimenting with different food...and tried cheese ...I felt ...i can eat cheese ..well cooked with any spicy food ... After another 45 days now..back to my old figure ...160lbs. However ...I am still getting upset...Like last week....dude..who is like "Cat in rocking chair sees the world is felling apart"...scared and out of his lame attitude..complained ...I took it positive..delivered and made pretty good stand in my own eye..his eye and his boss's eye. If u r freaking ..lame and scared..does not have confidence....Dont blame anything...u might upset me :)) ---Om Baghel