I grow fast..thatswhy i look for different horizon all the time

Why the hell I am awake at 3:30AM ...I have no idea...lot of things does not fit me anymore ...however i still enjoy those...I call it i grow up so fast ...I need different horizon all the time... In past couple of months...i have seen some changes over peoples reaction on me...sounds ..most of the time ...i feel i am doing great...then it comes to compare myself what i was...i feel ...i left things behind...now ...i dont fit there anymore.... Funny Part if even...my most pents size 34...do not fit anymore...lost 4kgs ...and came back to 71Kg...and 32 pent size..why did i changed myself...to look ..better which makes me more confident on presenting myself...i guess...I shaved my head...to look ...how i wanted to be...i know since childhood...i have big..proper shaped head...which looks even better without hair... ...I shaped body after going to swimming and yeah..hell of dancing...sometime...extras... But the real change ...i see is...i don't look Indian anymore to people here...I guess i have gained little bit of accent ...little bit of western humor and a little insight of their life...which makes me easier to understand them and talk freely...call it confidence...comes after knowledge.. Contd...(I lost my thought over some work...I hated though...)